Spreading positivity and hope has always been my goal. I see so much hate in the world and because of this I have made it my mission to share my light as much as I can. Getting sober not only ended my relationship with alcohol and substances but it also gave me a chance to restart my life in a meaningful way. I want to show that you can do this too.
I used to be proud of the person I was. I thought going out, partying and getting f*cked up was "cool," which gave me the ability to define myself as this. I had such a skewed idea of what was important in life and I placed little meaning on what really mattered. The light inside of my heart used to be dark and would thrive in toxic situations. Now, my heart is full of hope for the future, gratitude and kindness for the people around me.
Deciding to break my anonymity on my journey through sobriety was a tough choice. I knew there would be tons of people who would question my decision and think it would have negative long-term effects on how people perceived me. I decided that I did not care. My desire to be open and honest trumped any feeling of needing to keep what I was going through a secret. If someone didn't want to know me or hire me because of this I knew it wasn't meant to be. I knew that I was taking a risk, but I believe it is a risk that saved my life.
I, nor anyone else struggling with addiction should feel shame around this disease. Over the years, there has been a terrible stigma towards the type of person that is affected by this. They are classified as weak, selfish people with no self-control. I want to show the world that this is NOT true. We are survivors who have overcome serious adversity in our lives. No one chooses to be an alcoholic/addict, I certainly did not but you push through the challenges and make the best of whatever situation you are in. This is what I did and will continue to do for the rest of my life.
I never thought in a million years that this would be my role. Sharing my experience and try to help others with their own battles has been humbling. There is pain and suffering from this disease but there can be an end. I have seen first hand what a life of dedicated sobriety can do to a person. To see that light come back inside of someone is one of the most beautiful things.
If you truly commit to yourself that you want to change your life, you 100% can. That willingness will propel you into a self-transformation that can redefine your meaning of life. That is what sobriety did for me and it can do that for anyone else.
I am by no means saying the solution to happiness in sobriety is to break your anonymity. For me, it provided me with an outlet and a community of people that support me and hold me accountable. Beyond this, I am happy in my sobriety because I now have a new, wonderful life that I never thought I deserved. Now, I know that I am worthy of this amazing life and I work every day to try to give back as much as I can.
I constatnly get to meet people in recovery and learn from their journeys. Some of the most incredible and strong people I have met in my life are sober. These are ride or die kind of folks who would do anything for you. The bond I share with my friends in recovery is indescribable. All I know is that I am their for them as they are their for me, no matter what.
I believe if you can get sober, that this is just only the beginning of a better life. There are so many gifts that come along with opening up your heart to the light of the world and anyone can have them. If you get there, pass along your inspiration. You have an opportunity to make the world a better place, something that a lot of people will never get to have. Be grateful that you have the strength to do so and share your light!!